Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Balancing - Putting First Thing First
It's been quite a while since I last blog. Was pretty busy to come and update...
Have been returning home pretty late recently. I feel that I am so busy with the activities around me that I don't really spend much time communciating with my family. To make things worse was I came back home late. Feel rather quite bad and guilty about it that sometimes I made them stay up late at night and worried whenever I returned home late. I really didn't mean to let them worried about me. I guess I really need to set aside some of my agenda so that I won't neglect them
Talk about the word 'neglect' - I guess no one want to be neglected in one way or another. And I realized that all this while, I have 'neglected' some people around me, especially those that I love and those that loves and cares for me too. I hardly call and ask how are they, what have they been doing etc. Even though I remembered for example when would be their exams and had the thoughts of texting them my regards, asking them how's their preparation but it's just merely thoughts and not actions. Felt rather bad that all along I didn't really pay much attention to those people that's been talking to me. Now I learnt that I must talk to them not only about matters that need to be attend to, about work but also to let them know I am interested in their lives - about their coming and going (just like how Jesus interested in my entire life), sharing my everything (songs, games, jokes) with those people whom I cherish. It's all boils down to my heart. If I truly love them, I would give them what they want and not what I want them to have. Words are cheap. So I must learn to be a gal that is more towards action and less of words. Indeed, I need to let them know how much I appreciate them, not only by words alone but by actions too. Letting them know their presence makes a difference in my life and that I really love them lots.
It's been 3 weeks since school has started. And guess what? This semster is soon coming to an end too (in march). Well, have been diving and trying to digest as much as I could during lectures, tutorials and during my break too. In-course assignments and exams are around the corner, so is presentation. Am ask to present a topic that have yet taught. Have yet really do the research and pre read up that topic. Oh yea, I got back my results for last semster. Thank God I cleared my papers!
New semster mark another brand new journay for me. New classmates, new lecturers, new module to take, new leaders, new members, new church location... brand new level of walk with the LORD... some say changes are good, some disagree. whatever it is, I am going to leave it to Him and trust God in a greater measure of faith that everywhere I go, whatever I do, things would prosper and produce good and right results at the right moment of time. Am going to work hard, study real hard and pray hard too. The year is coming to an end soon. It's good to start well in the beginning. Every runner runs their best when the race began but how many would make it to the top and finish the race?
I want to end this year right - that I am in a much closer relationship with the LORD and have a clearer picture of His Characters. I know Making God my Primary Pursuit and Abundance Will Surely Follow. "But seek first the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you" (Matthew 6:33 NKJV). No matter what level of excellence I have reached at this moment, there is always another level, a higher road. I can always improve and become better; no one have arrived. That is why excellence, which is nothing more than the continual pursuit of improvement, must always be at the forefront of my mind. I must live with the thought pattern of always getting better, always multiplying, always becoming more effective. The proof of desire is pursuit. Excellence is a reality to live in every moment of every day. It isn't something we camp-out at for a while, it is something I must continually seek after and pursue. Whatever I lack in life can be traced back to this one thing: I am unwilling to pay the price to achieve it. I will never obtain what I am unwilling to invest my time and energy into. If I truly desire something, I will pursue it. If I don't go after it, it is safe to say I really don't want it. I will never forget, heaven will always reward my pursuit!
What's my pursuit?
"One Thing I have desired of the LORD, that I will Seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD. All the days of life, to behold the inquire in His temple. For in the time of trouble. He shall hides me in His tabernacle. He shall hides me; He shall set me high upon a rock..." Psalm 27:4-5
I need to have a balance life - God, family, church, work, school and ministry. I need to set my forcus right - putting the first thing first. Learning to let God be the center of my life in everything I do. So many things to do, so little time... Stress? Jesus is my Prince of Peace! Holy Spirit is my comforter!! I am not going to complain nor scream at the things around me. Complaining means the level of capacity is not high enough to handle those things around that's why people complained. So now I am going to increase my level of capacity! What I want now is simply to be and stay in God's presence. Suddenly this song rings in my heart. Every word means so much and it really kind of speak out what my heart wanna say and I really wanna sing out loud to my beloved Lord.
once i have turn my face from Thee
yet You sought me and You cleasen me
make me whole again
Jesus my Savior My Beloved and Friend
Your praises I bring from my heart I'll sing
You're the Shepherd of my heart
You've brought me to your charmber my Master and King
You light up my darkness and you gave me your word
That you never forsake me nor no ever leave me
Draw me Oh draw me away Messiah Today
To Your presence to stay
Oh Jesus now change me and mould me
That I can be ever more true to Thee
It's my heart beat, my heart deepest cry to be more truthful, sincere, obedience, sensitive, thoughtful towards my Lord Jesus Christ... and the people around me
an-gel wished upon the stars at 10:56 PM
